7/10/14

Yesterday I had my yearly Mammogram screening. For those of you that don’t know, my mom passed away from breast cancer in March of 2008. After she was diagnosed, I’ve been diligent to have the screening done each year to set my mind at ease, or if something is wrong, to have enough lead time to do something about it. My doctor has reassured me that just because my mom had it, doesn’t mean that I will. 

It is always an emotional day for me. As I sat in the waiting room listening to the elevator music, I thought about if they could have found it earlier, would my mom still be alive today. It almost brought a tear to my eye because I miss my her so much.

After the appointment, I head back to work and drive right by the cemetery where she is buried and think about her again. Made me miss her more. Work was a nice distraction, but I was on the emotional edge all day. Feeling tired from having to get up early for the appointment and sad that she is not physically with me.

I’m grateful that I have been cleared on screenings every year. Still waiting for the results of this one, having faith that everything will be just fine.

I think about my mom every day. I watched one of the boys play baseball last night and thought of my mom watching me play softball when I was growing up. I wished that she could be here watching the game with me. My Dad is here tonight, so I get my chance to watch the game with him.

Be sure to tell your mom that you love her and spend time with her when you can. One of my fondest memories was being able to scrapbook a couple of pages with my mom while she was in hospice care. I made a point of spending as much time as I could with her during that time knowing I had limited time left with her.